
Hello CB Campers!
Oh God, I’m afraid I’m getting lost in the crazy world or ‘ART’. I’m still struggling with considering myself an artist… Yesterday everything seemed to be O.K.
But I’m so confused again what this term might exactly mean. There are long disputes in the camp that makes me even more confused! Why are you doing this with me? {Sigh} For me ‘ARTIST’ definitely means a person who creates art as a pro. It doesn’t mean if she does it for money or not, but rather that she has enough confidence at least to call herself an artist or a photographer. How can I call myself an artist if I’m missing the faith in myself? Ok, literally professional means the job you do. For me it can also refer to the experience that you have gained during the years while you’re becoming an expert. It’s not really about the style you wanna represent day by day, year by year – it actually takes a whole lifetime to find your own style. Because style is changing. Continuously. And this is what lets us go further and further, lets us take up new challenges also.
I know that the biggest reason for feeling this way is due to a lack of confidence in myself. Photography – or any other medium you chose for this project – provides you a good way to overcome it. It allows me to express myself creatively. And here comes what I should keep in mind. It not only allows me to be proud of myself, and what I have accomplished, but I feel it also gives me a sense of depth as a person, and it helps to define who I am in small ways. After the third day in the camp I was happy to realize that it relieves stress for me also. Maybe it can do all of that for you too.
Even after a year or two I’m not sure I’ll claim to be a professional photographer but at this point of time it is a great fun. I’m lovin’ it!! I know that I will never be fully satisfied with the results of my photos. I like many of them but I’ll always have a feeling that I could have done it better. All true artists are critical of their own work. There’s nothing wrong to think so. It will keep me motivated for a lifetime.
When looking back at the end of this course I’ll be happy to see the progress of my hard work.
Today is the 3rd day in the camp. From now on I’ll try to keep in mind all the above thoughts.
Maegan asked us about our “creative buzz kills”. For this list I created two groups: 1) non-personal and 2) personal buzz kills. What are non-personal? Like bad weather, time pressure, if I need to finish something for instance by tomorrow, lack of time, tired of work, etc. The second group contains the things I highlighted above, like missing confidence. I would never tell a pro that I’m taking this course now. LOL He may make me feel alone and isolated in my creative thoughts and dreams. Now THIS IS OVER! They have no legitimate power over me! 
Ok, it’s time to finish this long novel! Maegan promised us that today is the last day of this hard core philosophical stuff.
Our random word prompt for today is ‘multilayered‘. This is the photo I came up with. How do you like it?
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by Lolo
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